January 8, 2009

Untapped depths?

I seem to glean nuggets of self-insight during job interviews. Strangely for me, I don't try to anticipate all of the questions and plan stunning answers. Rather, I formulate my opinion on the job and how well-suited I am, my views on the organization, and possible weaknesses to support. My interviews are therefore generally quite pleasant; rarely does the actual interview cause stress. The point of this explication is to relate one of the most interesting questions I have yet received: do you have a writing style? I don't remember my exact answer, but I believe I related that I tailor my output to my audience while tending to be a bit formal. The question was original, and I wished I had a better answer. (I still lack an adequate one.) The follow-up question was what type of writing I liked best, and immediately I answered correspondence. It was insightful, as I had never previously pondered the question.

It's interesting how questions can inspire truths at which it is hard for me to arrive solely through self-analyzing. It probably has to do with how God designed me with the need to verbalize. Truths sink in when I say them to someone else. Even repeating them aloud to myself helps. Interesting the way people's minds work. In a way it's good to know I can still surprise myself, though I think I attribute it to untapped depths rather than lack of self-discernment. Oh, silly me. :)

January 7, 2009

Loving "too much"?

It is probably impossible to love any human being simply "too much." We may love him too much in proportion to our love for God; but it is the smallness of our love for God, not the greatness of our love for the man, that constitutes the inordinancy. ~ C.S. Lewis in The Four Loves

This is such truth. I've long known I cannot love people correctly without God's love pouring through me. Moreover, the more I love God, the more I am able to extend love to others. Lewis is not saying anything I have not realized and experienced, but he puts the matter in such admirable perspective. Praise God for gifting people such as Lewis.

January 2, 2009

Email Update

Hello Everyone,

Thank you more than I can articulately convey for your invaluable prayers and encouraging emails. As an update, my grandfather's health has improved more than we could have hoped. The morning of my email, his fever was 103.7, and he was refusing to eat and drink. The fire department had visited twice over the past two days due to a fall and his increasing fever. We honestly thought that it was time. I arrived at 3pm, one hour before the intensive care hospice nurse. A few minutes before the nurse came in, Grandpa awoke on his own and was relatively chatty. The nurse took his temperature and found that it had gone down to 98.6! I am convinced this was an answer to prayer. Though the fever rose again in the evening, it never reached 100 degrees. We saw Grandpa on Christmas, and though his health is generally precarious, he is out of danger. It was a blessing to be able to spend time with him when he was in good spirits and mobile enough to move out of bed.

As for myself, I am home in Fillmore until I find a job. The search was postponed for about a week and a half for Christmas, 24-hour stomach flu, a wedding in San Diego, and moving. Though I wish for employment, I am reminding myself to be open to what God wants for me in Fillmore. If "nothing else," I will be able to spend significant time with my family and friends in Ventura County and perhaps travel a bit north to visit other friends. It has occured to me during my over-zealous analyzing that God is also blessing me with the free time for which I have so often longed over the past three years. In this period of my life I am reminded again and again of Ephesians 2:10, which is written in the context of our salvation by grace through faith - For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we might walk in them.

Amen! And thanks again.

Katie