Can't?

Brief thought for the night before going to sleep: lately I've told God, "I can't do this, so You're going to have to do something" when actually I know that I am capable. He reminds me of this, and I have to admit that what I really mean is that "this" -- whatever emotional feat or task -- is more draining or painful than I want to sacrifice. I basically think I will be a wreck at the end. Thus, failing, "can't." So there is a difference between genuinely "can't" and "can't without collapsing." I do think He can help us with both, but I need to be more honest about the really, really don't want to's because it seems indecently hard. Silly M.O. with God.

Sorry this is so incoherent, but sleep has been elusive. I know I'm putting it badly, but I guess I'm trying to capture the difference between asking God for help and wimping out. Sometimes I ask God for  help, and He tells me, "You know you can do it, but it's going to be hard." However, by and large, He helps out. I do not want to be one of those people who waits until they come to the end of their own strength before asking God for help, but neither do I want to be someone who does not stand and fight and believe God's promises.


The end for now.