How I drive myself crazy...

Went to Whole Foods today to look for Fair Trade chocolate. It's more expensive, but still in the range of See's, Godiva, etc. Came home and found this blog post about Cadbury going fair trade in the UK but being unable to justify the expense in the USA because they use Hershey's as a manufacturer. Oh, snap.


P.S. I could see myself as a Whole Foods customer if it wasn't so expensive. They had a scrumptious mango/jicama/basil/red bell pepper/red onion/jalapeno/Serrano pepper/lime juice salsa (yes, I memorized the ingredients) in the corner of the display case. My longing expression conjured up a generous sample. I think it would be marvelous with Shrimp sprinkled in. I'm almost motivated to cook, but not quite.

P.P.S. On the way out of the store, I passed by a woman collecting donations for the homeless. I did not contribute, but I spent the next several moments wondering why I was bothering to spend extra money on chocolate to avoid contributing to slave labor when I was unwilling to spend that money on the homeless. Every time I think I'm being radical, I realize that I am not being radical enough. Yes, this is partially due to my perfectionism, but mostly because being "radical" is not really as difficult as you imagine if you're doing it because you love God. I mean, giving up Peppermint Patties was definitely not fun, but it's not really that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things. The next step of buying less chocolate and giving away more money may seem like a sacrifice now that I have several chocolate bars sitting in my room, but once I implement the change, I'll probably find that it's not so difficult after all. My habit of getting rid of one thing a day has been so illuminating, largely because I hardly ever remember the things that are daily discarded. See, not that big of a deal.


And now you have a taste of how I drive myself nuts because it will become part of connected thoughts both linear and circular. Fair trade chocolate-->homelessness-->materialism-->exploitation of the Congo-->depravity of mankind-->why do we exist?-->do what you can-->fair trade chocolate-->etc.